i literally have only a handful of watchers like i could count them on my fingers... but anyway im getting a tablet within the next two weeks and i am excited. I went to the doctors and got bloodwork done they say im healthy but i now im not, i have no clue whats wrong with me. But yeah a HUGEGIMOUNGOUSBIGENORMOUS weight has been lifted off of me with the results! so now its time for a haircut and to apply for a job....sadly no better at driving, well thats not true but im not good enough yet. college in the fall if money issues straighten out, prolly gunna take art classes and a math. exciting i know. its just community till i figure out what im going to do. So ive been listening to alot of different music yet again, now im going back to rock cuz i cant listen to the usual station. but i still relle like electronic music now idk y. just the sounds of everything i guess. taking time to figure out who I am i still dont know and its a big issue. um the internets gotten depressing hopefully something will come up soon in my suckish life. sooooo yea im not going to die...i hope... but yea updated. if u kno who is reading this tell me what is going on sunday cuz i couldnt get a hold of u on aim.